“It takes a long time to realize how truly miserable you are, and even longer to see that it doesn’t have to be that way.” Cuddly Whiskers. That was 33. I broke. Every time I tried to focus on other people I would have a panic attack. I physically couldn’t do it. I had to focus on myself. I felt I did something extremely wrong, but I didn’t know what. So I looked at a timeline of my life and realized I was a snowball going down hill that hit a wall.