Almost 5 years......missing you! Don't have enough fingers on my hand to count the number of instances I've said, "I wish you were here." My eyes still fill with tears every time I hear the hymn Amazing Grace....I imagine you singing it..I can see your emotions as you sing, it was one of your favourite.
A Miracle happens when you abandon all of your attempts to try and fix yourself. When you simply let go of all your striving, controlling, and worrying. Then let My Spirit fill you, then you will live, move and breath your Miracle. Then you will find the real Miracle is My Presence within you. Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed. ---John 8:36
Amen to this. It's happening for a reason. You're going through it to learn from it and to help others along the way after you've gone through it. Even helping them while you're still going through it. You're not alone. You're NEVER alone.