God allows things to happen for a reason. Why does it take me so long to realize that God is in control? Shame on me for not turning to Him first. My children are watching how I handle situations and what better way to handle them but to give them to God.
Why do I do this to myself. I create this monstrosity of pain and grief and then I wonder why I'm so sad. I wonder how I got this way, when in reality, it happened because of me. I knew all along. And it's all my fault. And I can't do anything about it.