and soon, people are going to be able to look back and smile at the thought that they made it and that they'll be happy that theyve finally found happiness. and the past won't matter. <<The past still matters. You just learn from it, you can't forget it
I know this feeling so well. I stopped crying to myself at night somewhere in the middle of my marriage. I hadn't really thought about it until now, but I guess that was the point where I accepted his treatment and just became "numb" instead of upset.