Not really all "mine" but my experience is MINE.It happened to me. I cannot explain to where anyone ( except maybe another birthmother ) could possibly understand. It forever changed me as a human being. To know you have a child out in the world somewhere, that you know NOTHING about, tears away at your spirit. Not knowing consumes you at times...THINK ABOUT THAT.
I'm trying desperately to figure out what the reason was for putting him in my path. Other than heartbreak and ruining my self confidence and feeling totally conned and stupid, I don't know. Maybe i needed to learn that you really can't trust people. Not even those who claim to love you. And i did learn! Now I don't trust anyone BUT the universe. So thanks #beachbob
I like being alone. I have control over my own shit. Therefore in order to win me over your presence has to feel better than my solitude. You're not competing with another person, you're competing with my comfort zones.
I am not afraid of my truth anymore. I will not omit pieces of me to make you feel comfortable. Love me for who I am or not at all. Decide if you are part of my history or part of my future. I am who I am.