Nobody will know what`s going on in your mind. It`s better to express rather than to expect. You already have the NO, take the risk of getting the YES. We only have one life. Keep it simple. ~ so EZ but us humans manage to make it so freaking hard!
we like to complicate things when it is really quite simple; find what it is that makes you happy and who it is that makes you happy and you're set. If only others got the message that it's that simple.