what you listen to one day defines how you're feeling. I always with my friends could be able to tell what I'm feeling by my music of the day, so they don't have to ask, and I don't have to say anything, and they will comfort me when I need it.
Not sure that there really is a 'legal' way to download music without paying for it. Unless you go to bandcamp and an artist has a pay what you want that starts at $0. http://bythebirch.bandcamp.com/releases
Someday I'm gonna drive up to that sign and walk through those doors, and melt into somebody else's life as i sing my heart out to everyone in that audience and in the end i'll die happy knowing that i made my dreams come true.