Again so well put I don't think the trust can be rebuilt this time. I have friends embracing me who genuinely value friendship know my worth as I know theirs and it's refreshing being me with no one accusing me of things they do that I never have or would. If only you had gone within instead of following any BS belief sys from people u don't know never met, you would have healed and I would have jumped for fucking joy as when it was good man fuck it was the best.