Sexually and emotionally damaged/abandoned by men and boys at such a young age sets a path of unintimate, reckless, promiscuous relationships throughout life that have little stability.
forgive and forget
Sometimes in the waking state we think we are doing quite well but when we sleep we find that at least some part of us is still greatly confused or stuck in negativity. This should not be viewed as a discouragement. It is a benefit when different aspects of the mind manifest in dream and point out where we must work in order to progress.-Tibetan Yogas of Dream and Sleep
The pack didn't care for conventional boundaries. As long as they were together, everything was okay. More than okay. Perfect.
At least once a day, I think about the time we're "wasting" by not being together. Then I snap back to reality because I know it's not the right time. Then I think, "But maybe it is....". Then I snap back again.