I Deserve Peace. Peace from chaos. I was always there for people in my life. When I mean there. calling, talking in person, visiting. I was too much there for them. Almost self sacrificing for others I cared for. Was talking on there stuff. For the first time I have been there for me. Able to work on myself/ new goals, so that i can meet new professionals, friendships, and a respectable partner. It has been very challenging. Learned Who is there for me. how used I was. i have a choice. My…
That's why everything is so hard. I feel too much, or not at all, I care too much, or not at all. Seeing the world through your heart instead of your eyes just makes you look crazy to everyone who just sees with their eyes.
I refuse to get to the end of my life and realize how much I've missed because of working too much. As long as our bills are paid and we are happy and loving our life, that's good enough for me. And yes, we are planning for our future as well.
Lovely #quote by @banksy reminding me that even though I feel like utter hell resting is the best medicine and not giving in to (too much) self pity and just quitting. Will be trying to get some food down me and some sleep once my stomach settles and then hopefully a bit of dreaming will help my body recover and readapt to NZ life