Ambedo ~ (n.) a kind of melancholic trance in which you become completely absorbed in vivid sensory details — raindrops skittering down a window, clouds of cream swirling in your coffee — which leads to a dawning awareness of the haunting fragility of life.
Whatever you create is special. However, despite this fact, there will still be some harsh critics. Nonetheless, you are a creator, and it's worth the personal investment. Some people make no investment at all in anything!