You're doing both, Sarah. None of it will help you overcome your mental illness. Accept that she moved on and upgraded, learn why you lost such a wonderful person. Go become a decent partner for someone else. I won't beat her and use her like you did.
Are you successful? What does that word mean to you? Unlimited wealth, “toys” as far as the eye can see, or family gatherings at your cottage on the lake? Success is a state of mind, and I would like to help you Succeed! Be