"You Can Be Pagan, Or You Can Be Atheist, But You Can’t Be Both – Or So I’m Told" by Rua Lupa, "Pagan is a label that simply has claimed me, I’m just through trying to push away from it and have accepted it."
3/19/16 - The 10 of Swords tells me you have found yourself beaten down by your own obligations, ideas, or negative thinking, and you've reached a point where you just can't continue in that direction any longer. You've been trying to stay so on top of things that you've blocked out your emotional needs. The King of Cups is good at emotional control, but when reversed, he's taken control too far--instead of using your emotions, you're pushing them away.
Linkin Park - Pushing Me Away// I've tried like you To do everything you wanted too This is the last time I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you (Everything falls apart Even the people who never frown Eventually break down) The sacrifice of hiding in a lie (Everything has to end You'll soon find we're out of time left To watch it all unwind) The sacrifice is never knowing