Oh god yes.. worse not because you no longer want to stay you w the person and you'll miss them.. but worse because you have to hurt them by leaving.

Oh god yes.. worse not because you no longer want to stay you w the person and you'll miss them.. but worse because you have to hurt them by leaving.

Truth....it's like you're feeling everything all at once, but so numb at the same time :-/

Truth....it's like you're feeling everything all at once, but so numb at the same time :-/

I only hate feeling numb when I forget to respond to something like a normal person would. Something that would outrage others would cause me to say "What did you expect?" Human nature is a beast.

I only hate feeling numb when I forget to respond to something like a normal person would. Something that would outrage others would cause me to say "What did you expect?" Human nature is a beast.

Anhedonia. But I am supposed to look for positive things to do in my life to change my life. How do you do that when you are dead inside already?  bingo

Anhedonia. But I am supposed to look for positive things to do in my life to change my life. How do you do that when you are dead inside already? bingo

DID sometimes we feel things too intensely... sometimes we numb it all out. Too often we feel blank empty nothingness. Numb feels so much better than feeling the hurt.

DID sometimes we feel things too intensely... sometimes we numb it all out. Too often we feel blank empty nothingness. Numb feels so much better than feeling the hurt.

"I tip toe through delicate conversations, each step deliberate, each whispered word a means to an end.  I do not mean to hurt you, I've just been hurting for a little too long now myself that I think I've become accustomed to it.  I'm numb, but only when I remember I can't feel my hands anymore. I forget it's there, a constant yet forgotten reminder of delicate conversations long since past.  I only wish to warm myself tonight. I promise not to make a home in your heart, no matter how much…

"I tip toe through delicate conversations, each step deliberate, each whispered word a means to an end. I do not mean to hurt you, I've just been hurting for a little too long now myself that I think I've become accustomed to it. I'm numb, but only when I remember I can't feel my hands anymore. I forget it's there, a constant yet forgotten reminder of delicate conversations long since past. I only wish to warm myself tonight. I promise not to make a home in your heart, no matter how much…

The only thing I look forward to is going back to bed at night. I don't have anything to look forward to. I have no purpose. I can't find happiness. People may think I'm happy, that I'm fine, but I'm not, I'm just good at pretending.

The only thing I look forward to is going back to bed at night. I don't have anything to look forward to. I have no purpose. I can't find happiness. People may think I'm happy, that I'm fine, but I'm not, I'm just good at pretending.

Teach Me ~ j. m. green  http://johnmarkgreenpoetry.tumblr.com/  #feelings #numb #depression

Teach Me ~ j. m. green http://johnmarkgreenpoetry.tumblr.com/ #feelings #numb #depression

I was forced to do this to someone whom I thought was special... ...God has a way of working things out... ...

I was forced to do this to someone whom I thought was special... ...God has a way of working things out... ...

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