Every year, this season, this time, I feel happy, and I pay for it. Something always challenges me, my world turns upside down and I am faced with my own fears. Ahh, but othis year is different. I've over come my fears but live everyday in despair. This year it has not ended. And I continue my search for "happy". Only I never really want to find it, since it will just hide away again.
I'm starting over. A new pattern of thoughts. A new wave of emotions. A new connection to the world. A new belief system in myself. BREAK FREE! This was my past experience and it is never worth it to lose yourself due to someone else.