this has so many meanings. for example: once i tried to turn the light on in the bathroom while extremely intoxicated and i could not for the life of me find the freakin switch. i lost my mind in the darkness that night.
it was 1 am on the 10th day and i completely misunderstood the story lol;; i thought that MC being kidnapped after midnight wasn’t a dream ((idk i guess i was super sleepy)) && then Zen suddenly calls to check on MC and the only option was to say that you’re ‘fine’ so I was all “WTF tell him you got kidnapped!!!” and i was very confused with all the chats tl;dr: the entire day i believed that MC was with Unknown and he was the one talking to the RFA members through MC’s phone
"Tell me. Just work with me. What is it like to always be chased and threatened and beaten and tortured?" "Nothing. I've dealt with it for so long that it doesn't hurt to me anymore. Pain is eternal for me, so you and everybody else in this world can chase me, threaten me, beat me, and torture me, but it will not change anything. I'll still be me, you will still be you. So you can go bitch to your mom now, because you're are most definitley not getting me to tell you anything important."