This is the last will and testament. Never again will I be insensitive to you. I just miss you so much sometimes that I cant handle it. I hope you find and are blessed with the things your heart desires Lauri. I am so, so, sorry.I just needed a little of your attention thats all.
I made a mistake and judged someone who turned out to be a beautiful sweet person. I've apologized through multiple instagram direct messages but still don't think I'm forgiven bc she has not responded): I have been brought up to judge and criticize and I dont want to be that person thats why I have a wonderful husband and his family to show me the right way.
I'm sorry, sometimes I feel like I'm gonna lose u .... Where I lose myself ..... Then do random things. Which sometimes hurt u (very much). I'm sorry but the fear of losing u make me do all this things.