And why is that. Not for my ex, but for everyone around me. Why do I feel so alone in a crowd. The one time I feel truly happy is when I'm around the one I'm beginning to love, or perhaps beginning to want to love is better. And why can't I tell her so, despite how I feel. It's just fear, fear of rejection. Because if she says no, I'll again be broken.
Different in a bad way. I miss the way things used to be. Things are changing, people are changing, I'm changing. I can't handle it anymore. I wish someone understood how I felt and I wish I had someone to talk to cause I feel so alone right now.
I have lived this and I will never waste time like that again. Time you can never get back. And you can feel so alone even when you are with someone. I would rather be alone then lonely with someone else. You should never feel that way in a good healthy relationship.
behind-those-broken-blue-eyes: I have no one. I have no one who cares, I have no one to talk to. I have no one that’ll try to understand, I have no one to listen. Everyone has left. No one’s there for me. Absolutely no one. I’m so alone. I just need someone to hold me. I just need someone that I can run to on bad days and know they’ll be there with open arms.
Yes. I am so done with everything tonight. I don't know whats wrong with me..but thenagain I do. Its just hard to explain. I am so tired of being tired of everything. I go from being super happy to being sad. I am always sad and happy at the same time and I don't know how. I am always confused. And I hate feeling like this all the time. I am okay when I am around people but even then I feel so alone. My thoughts hurt me.