Saddest thing instead of getting easier it's getting harder, cry every night begging God to bring you back, wake up at 2am screaming looking for you, but your no where near & all I can do is cry & hurt..
Not every night...but there are those nights that suddenly it hits and then I'm sobbing and I don't even know why and I'm convinced I'm a disappointment to everyone and I just want to give up on everything.
are u happy? is such a difficult question i always say yes, b/c i have friends i laugh at jokes, i go out a lot and have fun my life isn't as bad as it could be, and i don't have terrible problems. it could be worse. but then, one night @ 3 am when i'm alone still awake, lying in bed, thinking about life, i find myself crying my heart out suddenly i convince that nobody likes me, or nobody will ever like me. i feel horrible and i ? everything i had and i don't know if i was ever happy @ all
Depression is the worst kind of killer. It corners you at night, or when you're all alone, and slowly eats away at any shred of happiness it can fine, until there's nothing left, but pain, and eventually, death.