And I feel it to the core of my soul every single day! I want to see our children, hug them, hold them, give them endless kisses... Honey, you don't know what it feels like to be in my position, but you know pain... It's raw hell burning at the edges of a mind. It's why I have to do therapy 3 times a week. It's why I take Prozac twice a day, fighting the depression that threatens to consume me... I know you know the feeling. I know you know the pain I feel... Please help me. Share our…
Saddest thing instead of getting easier it's getting harder, cry every night begging God to bring you back, wake up at 2am screaming looking for you, but your no where near & all I can do is cry & hurt..
are u happy? is such a difficult question i always say yes, b/c i have friends i laugh at jokes, i go out a lot and have fun my life isn't as bad as it could be, and i don't have terrible problems. it could be worse. but then, one night @ 3 am when i'm alone still awake, lying in bed, thinking about life, i find myself crying my heart out suddenly i convince that nobody likes me, or nobody will ever like me. i feel horrible and i ? everything i had and i don't know if i was ever happy @ all
Not every night...but there are those nights that suddenly it hits and then I'm sobbing and I don't even know why and I'm convinced I'm a disappointment to everyone and I just want to give up on everything.
I literally used to be like this every day...but I'm finally the girl who is healing--she isn't falling apart because the Lord blessed her with the best bestfriend a girl could ask for and this pretty freaking amazing guy <3
Describes me perfectly! "She knows he is not hers to have. Yet she is still in love with him and the thing that makes her cry at night. And the fact that, she couldn't help falling for him, and if she could she would forget about him, but she knows that isn't possible."