This...yes. He may have thought it was easy for me to leave, but it was one of the hardest things I have ever done. It hurt like hell. Because I did love him with all my heart, body and soul. I know at one time he loved me too.
During the grief process, you may be thrust instantly and without warning, into misery as the emotional wave swells and descends. Remind yourself that you have had these feelings before and that eventually it passes.