I feel broken inside and I just can't believe I'll ever feel any differently. I don't know how to heal myself. I try but just when I think I'm getting somewhere, it disappears like sand through my fingers. Will I ever feel whole again? Life has worn me down so much, I just don't know anymore. What keeps me going? I truly don't know Xx ❤❤
I'm never going to be my dad, I don't know how many times I can tell you that accept blame for the ruining of everything. But I've also been doing everything I know how to win you back. Please if there's even a tiny hope left, even the smallest amount of love - give me the chance. I will never make these mistakes again. I'm truly lost without you... I'm sorry, and I love you.
Yes, I stay up late at night just thinking about different ways we could still be together and how one decision can change everything, but I'm getting better. I don't spend hours thinking about you, I spend a mere ten minutes deciding if your someone I should waste my night thoughts about. Everytime it's a no, but I do it anyways. I've tried being friends or even aquatints with you, but you always have an excuse. No more thoughts should run through my brain tonight