Yep Donald McNamara showed me this one and now I can't even come close to the person I was because of the abuse. Sorry my friends, I just can't find my way back to the love and trust I used to have. I wasted too much on Don and now I don't feel that I deserve to be loved and can't trust that the men out there aren't there to just hurt me more.
Everyone says I'm too sensitive and that I have to toughen up. I'd rather go through life feeling everything and every emotion...than to be NUMB. I agree with you girls though. I am the first person to laugh...but also the first one to cry when I'm sad. And as you know...this is the saddest time of my life. I've been preparing myself for this for years...but I never thought it would come all at once.
This is pretty relevant for me right now. I've spent so much time caring about others' opinions of me, caring about their feelings, impressing them, and trying to be someone I'm not for them. My heart is so tired of trying to give itself to everybody it meets.