Yep Donald McNamara showed me this one and now I can't even come close to the person I was because of the abuse. Sorry my friends, I just can't find my way back to the love and trust I used to have. I wasted too much on Don and now I don't feel that I deserve to be loved and can't trust that the men out there aren't there to just hurt me more.
I am so bad at letting go, but I guess i am a pro at letting it hurt. With you, I've been letting it hurt for a long time. I love you and I want to be with you, but I can't and you dont match my effort, but I can't muster the strength to let go
Everyone says I'm too sensitive and that I have to toughen up. I'd rather go through life feeling everything and every emotion...than to be NUMB. I agree with you girls though. I am the first person to laugh...but also the first one to cry when I'm sad. And as you know...this is the saddest time of my life. I've been preparing myself for this for years...but I never thought it would come all at once.
Sometimes we don't know what someone is really thinking or how much they're truly hurting. It's a very profound realization. Sometimes you don't know who has eaten that day, or who won't. Perhaps what they're going through while all along they're smiling and pretending their life is okay. If you just stop and try to think what the other person is feeling, it's possible we could all live peacefully. But it's truly a hard notion for people to comprehend.