This lesson was learned awhile ago. I derive happiness from TRUTH, after sorting through all the emotions from finding out my truths were just an illusion in regards to whom I thought was my tw.fl. I'm past it all.. If I meet the real deal in this life, great. If I don't that's fine too. Regardless I will continue to do the necessary soul work, so hopefully I never have to repeat another lifetime in this god forsaken place. Coming from an energy laden stand point.